Hi, I'm new to the forum, and fairly new to the idea of FET.
I have been very closed minded about a flat earth since I first heard it's mention, blowing it off as nonsense. That is however until I decided to sit down, stop being stubborn to the knowledge I've always been fed, and do some research of my own. Whilst I am skeptical about a lot of the theory, I am fully aware that no scientific fact was established without an initial theory, and often is disproved or further understood, so I have allowed myself to step outside of the comfort zone of what I have known my whole life and embrace the consideration of FET.
Whilst I am content that a lot of the maths and answers to many FET debunking questions can be effectively answered by the community/theorists, I still struggle with the thought of NASA being an "pawn organisation", set up to fake the idea of a round earth, and why they would even do this in first place, what is the problem with earth being round, why can that not be true?
I have also never been a particularly religious person, whether that is an important factor in FET or not, I find myself struggling to get on board with a lot of more spiritual beliefs some flat earthers preach. Perhaps I am depressingly closed to the idea that we have a point on this earth, and we are not just creatures like any other surviving in the way we have evolved to. But I find it hard to believe there is a divine end goal to this life for us beings.

I guess in hindsight, my post is less of a question, and more of an invitation to the community to help a skeptic, to be more open to the theory. If anyone is able to point me towards some professional literature of FET (A lot of youtubers explanations can be a bit.... extreme...) or even continue a discussion with me in this thread, I would love to get to know more.

Thanks in advance.