Please do not take this as disrespect as I am glad that your life is coming together and long may it continue, I would like to take issue with your reasoning however (not for the first time).
Swapping internet porn for Andy Williams songs is something we all aspire to, but I think you do yourself a disservice, to make such life changes there must have been the will to change. It would seem to be that in this search for a new direction (coinciding as it did with the discovery of this lunatic internet backwater) you mistook effect for cause.
Take the credit for yourself (and the internal chemical shift engendered by not eating all that sugar and cutting out the dope), carry on questioning the status quo, it’s the spice of life (after Moon river), just don’t be so quick to attribute your success to outside influences (especially Tom Bishop FFS), that’s the religious gene calling.
Good luck with the band and the blood pressure.
Incidentally, since I came here the dog has dug up my lawn, I dislocated my knee, Jon Snow has died and been resurrected and the pound has sunk to record lows due to dumb asses, none of this is attributable to this random bunch of misfits, although I do have my suspicions about the lawn incident and the Masons.
Jura: You can't hurt me. No keyboard warrior can hurt me. No one has ever said anything to me on the internet that made me feel more than minor annoyance for more than a few moments. I come to sites like this every few weeks to entertain myself.
I think you miss the point of my Andy Williams anecdote. I think you are smart, by the way. I think all of you are smart. But, smart doesn't equal right. Also, in no way do education, knowledge, talent and aptitude add up to good character.
Yes, I have talents, strengths and aptitudes. I also love dope and easy sex. I certainly can be stupid and arrogant.
5,6 yrs ago I repented and asked Christ to forgive me. Christ says: " Ask and you will receive. Seek and you will find. " I am asking and I am seeking. I am not finding the answers in materialism. What I found is flat earth. I believe in what I can see working before I believe in science and reason. What works for me is rejecting modern science. Seeing something work is much more compelling and convincing than any sophistry
You might not have so many problems is you humbled yourself before God. Suit yourself. I am not an evangelist.
I love women so much more than men. I don't care if they like me back. Be well.